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Well...I haven't been doing good lately. I am completely exhausted. Me and my "give 125% in everything that you do" attitude has worn me out. Especially when I have to finish other people's work along with my own. I've had to ask to not be a CS for a few weeks because I am completely burnt out. I was having to be CS every other day until last week, almost twice as much as any of the other CS people and there are three of them. Today was my only day to work in a two week period and I had a cleaner who didn't show up, so I did all 22 of his beds in 1 & 1/2 hours, then cleaned all 8 of his rooms, then cleaned his chore for stairs, and then after lunch proceeded to do all my chores for the day and finish the chores from the person yesterday cause they were to "busy" to finish their stuff. I finally left and hour and a half after I was supposed to. And tomorrow I get to feed 98 people breakfast all by myself because I am scheduled alone on a Friday morning with a full hostel.



Out of all this negativity and exhaustion there is one bright spot. Today in cleaner time we discussed John 18:1-40 & 19:1-16 and I gave a few questions to the cleaners. 1. What was the crime that was committed? 2. Was it just, for him to be crucified? Which sparked a great debate and I just kept asking more questions and one cleaner just kept answering, and then I asked, "Why didn't Jesus take the way out? He could have just had Pilate take Him away, but He didn't. Why?" And his answer was, "Because Jesus already knew what was going to happen and He had to die on the cross to die for our sins."..........Just like that. He said exactly what we have been telling them all along. Now all we can do is pray that he really understands what he said today and how he can apply it to his life. All day I have thought about his statement and it has just made me so happy. Whenever something upset me today, I've just thought about that sentence and everything is better. No matter how tired I am from working here, it's chances like this where I see that it's all worth it. Just giving people the chance to read God's word, when they never would have done it otherwise, and see how they can find the truth in it, is so amazing. I just pray that they can really understand the scriptures and it can be something that is put on their heart and they can make a decision from it.