Spiritual Warfare

It’s been a long time since I have been attached for my faith and even during those times it wasn’t really anything that really affected my emotions; but today I experienced something that I have never felt before.

We hired a new cleaner for a few days, but he has had a hard time focusing on his work and doing what is asked of him. Today I was having him clean the dumpster and he said that he wasn’t doing it, if I wanted it done then I would have to do it. Of course that didn’t go well for me, so I told him that it is the task for today and it has to be done; and again he says that I can do it, but he was not going to. So I told him that he could do it, or he could leave. I felt bad about it and my blood pressure was up, so I went to my manager and we discussed and prayed about it. I pulled the cleaner aside to discuss what had happened to try and start fresh for the day, but then he starts yelling at me, telling me I’m a liar, and I don’t have a Christian heart or attitude. He kept interrupting me to tell me these things, so finally I let him talk and told him that we would just have to disagree and got up and left.

I’ve never been yelled at like that before and never been told that I’m such a terrible person and I don’t act like a Christian. It really affected me. I can’t even remember all the words that he used and I can’t express the way that he spoke to me, but I was so upset that I just went to the office and started crying. One of the other staff members took over for me for our Bible Discussion time while I recomposed myself.

After the discussion, she and I took him aside to talk to him some more and give him another chance, but he would barely let us speak. He called me a liar and that my crying was fake and I wasn’t upset or hurt at all. He also said we were satanic and other things of that nature. The other staff member did most of the talking, but all of his negative and hurtful words were directed at me. So finally I told him that he needed to stop and he had one hour to collect his things and leave.

This job is so hard because you want to help people; you want to help meet their both physical and spiritual needs, but sometimes it’s very difficult. I just think we need to pray for him. He said that he has a degree in Theology, but he is definitely not a Christian. The scriptures are written in his head, but not in his heart.

And also please pray for me. Today has really shaken me emotionally, but I’m so happy that God is holding me in His arms. After my attack today, I really feel that I am doing something right.